about the hungry ghosts

"About the Hungry Ghosts," January 8, 2022 (#8)

title from interview with Shyam Selvadurai in Epiphany literary magazine (January 7, 2022)

Hunger: A Memoir of (My) Body by Roxane Gay (2017)

Heavy: An American Memoir by Kiese Laymon (2018)

one line from Unforgetting: A Memoir of Family, Migration, Gangs, and Revolution in the Americas by Roberto Lovato (2020)

About the Hungry Ghosts

We will lie like Americans lie.

I could have more of the control I constantly crave.

Get back to flying and crashing because flying and crashing were what

these tormentors bind themselves in righteousness when

I wanted to fairly fight white folk and I wanted to knock them out.

Mostly I liked them because they had many pockets where I could hide

the books that mean the most to you. Lock your doors.

Unruly bodies that must be disciplined by any means necessary

haven’t told me the truth about your job. I think you’ve done

a necessary corrective to our culture’s toxic attitudes toward

problems that weren’t problems, the smooth jazz, the manufactured

services and legal advocacy on behalf of refugees inspired me to

end up burnt like the ashes if I didn’t change and give myself over to

how suddenly someone else’s blood was inside of me.

June 2009, Beale Street, Memphis, TN

1-2-22 of architecture book

1-6-22 painting in doctor's office

from "How the Artist Mickalene Thomas Lovingly Reconceives the Female Form" by Angela Flournoy, New York Times Magazine 10.17.21

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